feeling gloomy

Another birthday passed..another yr being single during my bday =/ I feel lately that I am not that close to any of my friends.. I always get into those phases. I guess sometimes I forget how to socialize and its probably i don't socialize much on a daily basis. Like at work I don't really communicate with anyone at work since I work by myself. I kind of wish I could make new friends with other girlfriends. I used to switch out of groups from time to time...but now since a lot of the girls are kind of doing their own thing its hard to just ask anyone randomly to hang out. I never wanna bother ppl to go hang out. I think its hard to make friends nowadays cuz you know how often do you find new friends unless its mutual friends.

Happy 2013 New Year!

Happy New Year 2013! My goal should be to write in this blog at least once a month. Been busy with life. This is the last weekend before I begin my Spring semester. Almost every weekend I been busy but this is the first chill weekend. Just didn't feel like going out. My new goals should be to start dating =P I haven't dated anyone since my break up with my ex and that's been a year. 2012 was the year that all my girlfriends became single believe it or not. and currently most of all of them are taken/dating someone already. I'm happy for them but now we don't party hardy as much anymore. haha Srsly kinda done with the club scene though. I feel old to still be clubbing with the youngsters cuz most of them are 21 years young...

2012 also tested some old friendships. Drama between some of my close girlfriends. Hoping things will eventually go back to normal, but seeing that no one has made the first move. I doubt things will be back to normal.

Recap of the last couple of months of 2012..from SD Trip up to NYE with the girls.

 Brunch at the Cottage in SD for Tiff's bday

 SEA WORLD!

 Cousin Helen's wedding

 sisters

 cousin ping; brides maid

 Quyen's bday @Colony 

 Girls night at Icon Lounge

 Pumpkin carving at Sho's

 girls night @Belasco

Halloween  house party 

 playboy bunnies

 Trick or treating with the fam

 Universal Date with PIC

Ending the year with my bestie

Finally got a new car!! :)

So this past Memorial Day weekend I went with my bro to get my new car!!! :)) omg so happy!! I got the Honda Civic EX! yeahhhhh... Finally got insurance too so I've been loving the new ride.I havn't taken it out must yet just been to work school and gym. That's my usual routine anyways. My monthly payments wont be as bad. its less than 200. Before getting it i was scared about paying for it. I just have to watch my spending now. Anyways just wanted to write a second blog about my new baby<3

xoxo

Susan

Gym Rat

So I've been going to the gym almost everyday now since that I got my membership at 24hr fitness. It's been almost 3 months. My weight before the gym was 118 lbs! That was my heaviest weight in my life. My regular weight is usually 115. I know its only 3 pounds difference but I just didn't want to keep escalating. lol My current weight is 113 lb! :) So happy I have lost 5 lbs. I am still excited to lose more. My goal weight is at least 100 lbs. I just think at my height (5'1') That weight would be perfect. I'd be so happy!

There are plenty of days where I'm dreading going lol but most of the time I always feel so good after a work out. My motivation to work out is to be able to eat my fatty foods and not feel guilty about it hehe. I started to go to classes at the gym too. I tried out Body Pump last week and I really like it. It really helps tone your whole body using different weights. I plan to do at least one class a week and the rest probably cardio. (treadmill and elliptical)

Starting to not like to see people from high school at the gym. I'd rather just pretend I dont see them and go on with my work out hahah. Esp. because I dont wear makeup to the gym so I look nasty haha.

xoxo

Susan

My birthday in 3 days..

Currently listening to: Call me maybe_Carly Rae Jepsen

I have neglected my blog since I've been really busy. I actually should be studying for my history test tomorrow. ekk... but i always post pone it cuz i don't wanna read. Anyways life has been whatever at times. I think about how lonely I am... I kinda wish I had a bf again, but I'm probably not ready for anything serious right now. =/ I still talk to my ex randomly...He called me this week I think just to chat, but I was running late to class so didn't have a chance to talk to him. I didn't say I would call him back but probably shoulda called him back He just recently bought a house so he needs help on his electrical work so he asked me for help and asked me to ask my bro in law if he can check it out. I think its kinda weird since we're not together anymore so my bro in law doesn't really have an obligation to do this but i dunno i just asked him if he can help him out. Oh yeah and he also called to wish me a happy early bday :) He asked me who I'm inviting to my bday and I was like why do you ask that? Do you want to go or something? And he said no its ok. I dont know why he asked that maybe to ask if its any boys o_O like hes jealous. but w/e...

I'm actually not inviting any boys out this year. I dont think I really have any close guy friends anymore. Chris kinda is my only guy friend and im cool with the rest of his guy friends like alvin but sometimes I dont really know what to say to them without Quyen being there. Alvins friend Chano asked me what I was doing for my bday and i said clubbing sat and lunch on sunday. Its kinda funny that he thought he was invited when i never asked him to come out. He said he will try to come out to Mystudios.

So my birthday is in 3 days. Planning to do a clubbing event on Saturday night at Mystudios. I hope it goes well since last year my bday I barely made it to the club....got kicked out for being so intoxicated....so lame haha i just threw up everywhere but was pretty clean about it. hahah... Sunday I'm going to have brunch with the girls...its gonna be a tea party :) It should be fun :) since we never done that before. I was kinda tired of having bday dinners since thats what we been doing this year with all the girls bday so it gets boring. and also this is the first year with no bf paying for my dinner....i kinda feel bad for the girls paying for my bday but then again it probably gonna happen at lunch. but lunch should be cheaper? i dunno. But I guess we do that for everyones bday so thats why its fair.

There's a lot more drama that I wanted to talk about but this is the most recent drama/stuff happening right now. More to come: girlfriend drama, work drama, car problems. Ughhh FML! I need to find some better days.

PS: Forgot to mention my daily routine: work, school gym. poop lol jking about the poop but its in there with the routine haha. man I hope I lose weight...the gym membership better be worth it! $320 for 2 years.

Enjoy some random pictures from the past month. :) Includes the April babies bdays (Nancy and Jeanny) ^_^

peace out,
Susan

Your life is a gift. Accept it. No matter how screwed up or painful it seems to be. Some things are going to work out as if they were destined to happen. As if they were just meant to be.

Jordin Sparks_ It takes more

Tell me what happened this time
Made you come back again
I find out only see you when luck deserts you
If this is your idea of happiness
Then let's be clear
Those words of yours ain't working anymore

Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no, no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

I know you're busy so if you gotta go
Then go but don't forget to leave my heart
I stayed around for you but
You're no where to be found now
Once again here you are

Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

I've settled for less
When I stayed with you but no more
Cause you aint worth waiting for, ooh, uuuuh

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
(Don't you know it takes much more)
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
(Waiting for you, no, no, no, no)
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes more
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no
Don't you know it takes much more
No-no, no more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain, no, oh
Don't you know it takes much more, oh

been missing him but also trying to get over him..=(

Better in Time

Listening: Better in Time_Leona Lewis

I'm listening to Shontelle station on pandora and man all the songs make me think of him. We broke up less than a week ago and I know I wanted this but i do miss him. It's weird when we were still seeing each other I never thought about him but now I do cuz I'm thinking of the good times and gonna miss not having a bf anymore :( Ugh so sad gotta stop thinking about it..

Food Poisoning continue

Wednesday morning around 3am my stomach was grumbling and my tummy was hurrting really bad went to the rest room and had diarrhea again. it was so horrible might be tmi but it was dark green yucky! looked like poison so disgusting. and then in another 40 min went to rest room for a second time. :( in teh morning i woke up with still a stomach ach grumbling decided to go to the doc cuz i couldnt handle it anymore. the doc said i had food poisoning and got my meds 1 was for anti biotics to kill the bacteria and 1 was for my diareah. I shoulda took it wen i got it but i had school afterwards so went home and ate and took my meds. and i havent had to poop since. what a relief! i had to pooop at the doc before i saw him. had to poop at school went home pooped twice and that was the last time. my meds are getting me pretty drowsy tho so i cant really focus all that much :/ but better than pooping

Food Poisoning

Sunday I went to eat at Gin Sushi with Jackson. I treated him out to dinner because he helped me with my Philosophy exam last week. We ordered a couple of different sushi, but everything was WRONG!! I can't believe they sent us the wrong stuff, because almost everytime we go to gin sushi I am satisfied. I wanted this lobster roll i had last time with my fam but i got a hand roll o_O yuck its huge and hard to eat...forreals who would order that in a hand roll O_O!!! Another thing I ordered was the Dragon Roll which is supposed to be avocado and eel on cali roll....which came out to be RAW Salmon on top of cali roll... of course i just sucked it up and ate w/e they gave us but since i wasnt sure about my rolls i didnt question it even tho jackson thought the same thing. and he ordered another side of shashimi salmon which is ALL RAW stuff...

The reason why I am so angry about my dinner was because later that night i caught a huge FOOD POISONING!!! I woke up at 1am threw up my dinner...i was feeling cold, shivering, and i had a hard time falling asleep. i woke up at 3am again and thew up again. went to sleep. woke up at 7am contemplating to go to school or not since i was feeling so SHITTY. but i went anyways because i didnt wanna miss a lab or get lost in class for missing class. my body was aching when i was at school like sitting there hurt so bad. after school i went to pick up some pepto bismal and tylenol. When I got home, I tried to eat a hot pocket. It was hard to eat because I had no appetite and everything I ate I was scared that I would throw it up. after that I took a pepto bismal and knocked out for 3 hrs!!! thats the longest nap I ever had... woke up around 6ish took a shower and ate dinner then took those Asian medicine balls. Oh yeah i had diarea throughout the day too I forgot to mention hahah :X but yeah anwyays I fell alseep around 8:30 and woke up at 3ish because I slept practially the whole day and night. I emailed my boss telling him I wouldnt make it to work and he said it was fine.

This morning I felt a lot better, I probably coulda went to work but since I already called it off it was a good day just to relax. I had just a lil diarea this morning but I think I'm okay now....THANK GOD!!! it was the worst feeling of my life!!!!

p.s. I still don't know if it was cuz of the food poising from the sushi or because of the diet pills (Alli) that I was taking I started on Sat and sun...I havent taken it since sunday... kinda scared to use it again cuz it coulda been the culprit too :/

boring summer days

[My last event with the girls...Jessica's bday]

Back to my boring life. I had summer school starting two weeks ago but last week I dropped the class..stat 50 was too hard. :( maybe i shouldnt have dropped it but it was too hard too much to learn in a week and my first exam i already got a 41%. I need to find a job so I will have something to do in the summer. Everyone is gone now... Karen is in Ohio for an internship. Nancy just left to VN for some volunteer work. everyone else has a job and what not. :( I miss my girls..I dont hang out with them as much anymore. But I guess I'm gonna grab some drinks with tiffy this week cuz i text her to catch up and stuff :)

summer days are usually supposed to be fun. I guess I should start making plans :P but im so lazy and im so broke boooooo....

Collective Haul~!!!!

From top left to Right
1. Benefit La Bamba $28
2. 3 free samples from Benefit (BADgal, Posietint, the POREfessional)FREE
3. Vita-K (for fading acne scars)$15
4. Macadamia set with shampoo, conditioner, leave in cream, and healing oil (got it from Hautelook)$27.35
5. Sonia Kashuk eyeliner $6
6. Maybelline define a brow $5.59
7. Maybeline line stiletto $6.24
8. Loreal cream eye liner $10.69
9. Wet N Wild eyeshadow quad Lust $4.49
10. Wet N Wild eyeshadow quad Vanity $4.49

So I've been shopping for random makeup lately. :P I'm excited to try out all these new stuff I've already used the Wet N wild Vanity Pallete and the colors are really pretty! :) I've been curious with cream and liquid eye liner lately so thats why theres so many things for liners I dont use liner on top of my eyes often but ive been loving that look lately. :) I bought the Benefit La Bamba because I wanted the free gifts hahaha but i also wanted to try the new blush since i really loved the coralista color and i knew it would be just as beautiffuul!! hehe anyways imma write on reviews that i love later on kayyy

xoxo
Susan

SIA- BREATHE ME

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

------------
this song is on repeat<3

I heard this song on Pandora and I fell in love with it..its very deep and kinda depressing but i guess its kinda the way ive been feeling lately. so sick of my life..i hate going to school. i wish i had a job because ive been broke for the longest time...i have a dentist app to either get my cavities filled or get a root canal and im scared of the pain and the cost cuz i cant even afford it and my parents dont wanna help me pay for it. uggh...i know i shouldnt rely on the for money but i dunno i guess i just want the support or that they care. all they tell me is to wait and not get it fixed wait till i find a job that can pay for my dental work o_O waiting it out will just likely mess up my teeth. they dont really care for oral care so they dont think it is a priority. they dont even think health is a priority until it "hurts" like my parents are supposed to get a hep b test but they have yet to even ask or be concerned about it. my bro and sis have it and i guess my mom passed it down to them....anyways this is a longer post than expected i need to get back to hw.. :(

Happy Chinese New Year

The Year of the Rabbit! I heard its bad luck when its your zodiac year. :[ i hope its not true. so far i think its kinda good luck because a lot of stuff happening with my fam right now. but i guess i found out some good news today. but i wont mention much since this blog is public. hehe.

Nail Polish Storage

so i was watching a youtube video of TiffanyD's nail polish storage and I thought her idea to store her polishes were great. So I went to target to get the snap on container organizer. :) It was a bit pricey though. $11.99 O.o but it comes with 2 storage bins lol. Now I can see all the colors of my polishes a lot easier :) i dunno what to use this pink tin for now.

before



after

Aiden my cute nephew

another update of my life with pictures of my nephew!! omg he has gotten so big now..hes 7 months now :D love love him!!

Winter

Well, Today will be the last day of my winter break. hmm it was pretty chil and i didnt do anything fun at all this break. lol my xmas was w/e my fav xmas gifts were the comp monitor from jax and my chanel perfume from karen. haha and my new years eve night was nothing big either. i just went to eat with jax at tokyo table and went back to my house to watch new years eve specials.

This break consists of working at my moms shop; staying home watching tv series like the office and Dexter; hung out with jax a lil bit; hung out with the girls twice or 3 times. Tomorrow I'll be taking Econ for winter intersession...i hope its not hard or boring haha. ok thats it for now. lates.

update

Wow I have not written on this blog since school started. I guess I have been busy with school work and projects. but yeah school is going to end in 3 weeks so I'm excited to finish up because i really do not like these classes!! i never enjoy going to any of these classes because they are so boring. i think group projects are a waste of time and take forever to get shit done because everyone in the world doesn't care about getting shit done. ugh w/e thats why I'm so glad to end fall semester already.

anyways i haven't hung out with my girls in a long time i guess since some of us went back to school we dont spend as much time together. and for the longest time i guess since summer lol i havent planned any event and kinda lazy and dont care to plan anything. sound kinda wrong huh? i mean i do kinda miss them but i also do not want to spend money esp cuz i have no job.

the worst part is that im spending money that i dont even have. :( i have been going back to my makeup CRAZYNESSS!!! like omg i thought i stopped but sephora friends and family came out with 20% and i went through almost 3 orders online because there was another weekend for VIB members. and also been buying clothes and shoes hahaha omggg i need a job no ones has been calling me back im so sad!!!!! :(

this week is my and jax 4 yr anni. Nov 26. and hes going to be working black friday. kinda feel like w/e about it . =/ he hasnt even planned anything for it. i yelled at him last week that he better do something fantastic or else...and this is a threat! lol he said he cant do anything this week so he said to postpone it till next week...

alright im done gnites

first day of school...

omg first day was so tiring...so i had to park on the very top of the parking structure and there were security actually helping us guide to find parking....so my first class was speech 10 and it was soo boring like seriously...i never knew first day can be this boring all he should be doing is telling us what we should expect and it gives us a freaken life lesson about marriage o_O...so my next class was psychology. it was on the 4th floor and somehow it took me to the 1st floor...so weird...it was so hot and cramped up there...and we were all waiting out there no one walked in cuz they thot there was class in session..so finally we get in and waited for a while and someone tells the class that class was cancelled.. o_O!! so i left and went to the library to print out a paper to go to the DMV. but i saw the pasadena one and it was longgg line. went to the wes co and it was long too!! so all that driving for nothing so i went to the mall.

the end

brunette or blonde?

this summer i wanted a change in my hair....i wanted it to look like audrina from the hills..my sis said she could do it but it was wack!it didnt even look like hers. my sis first gave me highlights. then dyed the whole thing nutmeg. and it loooked too much blonde for me. so i dyed my hair all one color [nutmeg] and it came out orangey. and later on it faded to blonde again lol

anyways..i wanna go back to dark hair or a light brown cuz i dont think the blone suites me :[



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