SIA- BREATHE ME

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

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this song is on repeat<3

I heard this song on Pandora and I fell in love with it..its very deep and kinda depressing but i guess its kinda the way ive been feeling lately. so sick of my life..i hate going to school. i wish i had a job because ive been broke for the longest time...i have a dentist app to either get my cavities filled or get a root canal and im scared of the pain and the cost cuz i cant even afford it and my parents dont wanna help me pay for it. uggh...i know i shouldnt rely on the for money but i dunno i guess i just want the support or that they care. all they tell me is to wait and not get it fixed wait till i find a job that can pay for my dental work o_O waiting it out will just likely mess up my teeth. they dont really care for oral care so they dont think it is a priority. they dont even think health is a priority until it "hurts" like my parents are supposed to get a hep b test but they have yet to even ask or be concerned about it. my bro and sis have it and i guess my mom passed it down to them....anyways this is a longer post than expected i need to get back to hw.. :(

Happy Chinese New Year

The Year of the Rabbit! I heard its bad luck when its your zodiac year. :[ i hope its not true. so far i think its kinda good luck because a lot of stuff happening with my fam right now. but i guess i found out some good news today. but i wont mention much since this blog is public. hehe.

Nail Polish Storage

so i was watching a youtube video of TiffanyD's nail polish storage and I thought her idea to store her polishes were great. So I went to target to get the snap on container organizer. :) It was a bit pricey though. $11.99 O.o but it comes with 2 storage bins lol. Now I can see all the colors of my polishes a lot easier :) i dunno what to use this pink tin for now.

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Aiden my cute nephew

another update of my life with pictures of my nephew!! omg he has gotten so big now..hes 7 months now :D love love him!!

Winter

Well, Today will be the last day of my winter break. hmm it was pretty chil and i didnt do anything fun at all this break. lol my xmas was w/e my fav xmas gifts were the comp monitor from jax and my chanel perfume from karen. haha and my new years eve night was nothing big either. i just went to eat with jax at tokyo table and went back to my house to watch new years eve specials.

This break consists of working at my moms shop; staying home watching tv series like the office and Dexter; hung out with jax a lil bit; hung out with the girls twice or 3 times. Tomorrow I'll be taking Econ for winter intersession...i hope its not hard or boring haha. ok thats it for now. lates.

update

Wow I have not written on this blog since school started. I guess I have been busy with school work and projects. but yeah school is going to end in 3 weeks so I'm excited to finish up because i really do not like these classes!! i never enjoy going to any of these classes because they are so boring. i think group projects are a waste of time and take forever to get shit done because everyone in the world doesn't care about getting shit done. ugh w/e thats why I'm so glad to end fall semester already.

anyways i haven't hung out with my girls in a long time i guess since some of us went back to school we dont spend as much time together. and for the longest time i guess since summer lol i havent planned any event and kinda lazy and dont care to plan anything. sound kinda wrong huh? i mean i do kinda miss them but i also do not want to spend money esp cuz i have no job.

the worst part is that im spending money that i dont even have. :( i have been going back to my makeup CRAZYNESSS!!! like omg i thought i stopped but sephora friends and family came out with 20% and i went through almost 3 orders online because there was another weekend for VIB members. and also been buying clothes and shoes hahaha omggg i need a job no ones has been calling me back im so sad!!!!! :(

this week is my and jax 4 yr anni. Nov 26. and hes going to be working black friday. kinda feel like w/e about it . =/ he hasnt even planned anything for it. i yelled at him last week that he better do something fantastic or else...and this is a threat! lol he said he cant do anything this week so he said to postpone it till next week...

alright im done gnites

first day of school...

omg first day was so tiring...so i had to park on the very top of the parking structure and there were security actually helping us guide to find parking....so my first class was speech 10 and it was soo boring like seriously...i never knew first day can be this boring all he should be doing is telling us what we should expect and it gives us a freaken life lesson about marriage o_O...so my next class was psychology. it was on the 4th floor and somehow it took me to the 1st floor...so weird...it was so hot and cramped up there...and we were all waiting out there no one walked in cuz they thot there was class in session..so finally we get in and waited for a while and someone tells the class that class was cancelled.. o_O!! so i left and went to the library to print out a paper to go to the DMV. but i saw the pasadena one and it was longgg line. went to the wes co and it was long too!! so all that driving for nothing so i went to the mall.

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