feeling gloomy

Another birthday passed..another yr being single during my bday =/ I feel lately that I am not that close to any of my friends.. I always get into those phases. I guess sometimes I forget how to socialize and its probably i don't socialize much on a daily basis. Like at work I don't really communicate with anyone at work since I work by myself. I kind of wish I could make new friends with other girlfriends. I used to switch out of groups from time to time...but now since a lot of the girls are kind of doing their own thing its hard to just ask anyone randomly to hang out. I never wanna bother ppl to go hang out. I think its hard to make friends nowadays cuz you know how often do you find new friends unless its mutual friends.

Happy 2013 New Year!

Happy New Year 2013! My goal should be to write in this blog at least once a month. Been busy with life. This is the last weekend before I begin my Spring semester. Almost every weekend I been busy but this is the first chill weekend. Just didn't feel like going out. My new goals should be to start dating =P I haven't dated anyone since my break up with my ex and that's been a year. 2012 was the year that all my girlfriends became single believe it or not. and currently most of all of them are taken/dating someone already. I'm happy for them but now we don't party hardy as much anymore. haha Srsly kinda done with the club scene though. I feel old to still be clubbing with the youngsters cuz most of them are 21 years young...

2012 also tested some old friendships. Drama between some of my close girlfriends. Hoping things will eventually go back to normal, but seeing that no one has made the first move. I doubt things will be back to normal.

Recap of the last couple of months of 2012..from SD Trip up to NYE with the girls.

 Brunch at the Cottage in SD for Tiff's bday

 SEA WORLD!

 Cousin Helen's wedding

 sisters

 cousin ping; brides maid

 Quyen's bday @Colony 

 Girls night at Icon Lounge

 Pumpkin carving at Sho's

 girls night @Belasco

Halloween  house party 

 playboy bunnies

 Trick or treating with the fam

 Universal Date with PIC

Ending the year with my bestie

Finally got a new car!! :)

So this past Memorial Day weekend I went with my bro to get my new car!!! :)) omg so happy!! I got the Honda Civic EX! yeahhhhh... Finally got insurance too so I've been loving the new ride.I havn't taken it out must yet just been to work school and gym. That's my usual routine anyways. My monthly payments wont be as bad. its less than 200. Before getting it i was scared about paying for it. I just have to watch my spending now. Anyways just wanted to write a second blog about my new baby<3

xoxo

Susan

Gym Rat

So I've been going to the gym almost everyday now since that I got my membership at 24hr fitness. It's been almost 3 months. My weight before the gym was 118 lbs! That was my heaviest weight in my life. My regular weight is usually 115. I know its only 3 pounds difference but I just didn't want to keep escalating. lol My current weight is 113 lb! :) So happy I have lost 5 lbs. I am still excited to lose more. My goal weight is at least 100 lbs. I just think at my height (5'1') That weight would be perfect. I'd be so happy!

There are plenty of days where I'm dreading going lol but most of the time I always feel so good after a work out. My motivation to work out is to be able to eat my fatty foods and not feel guilty about it hehe. I started to go to classes at the gym too. I tried out Body Pump last week and I really like it. It really helps tone your whole body using different weights. I plan to do at least one class a week and the rest probably cardio. (treadmill and elliptical)

Starting to not like to see people from high school at the gym. I'd rather just pretend I dont see them and go on with my work out hahah. Esp. because I dont wear makeup to the gym so I look nasty haha.

xoxo

Susan

My birthday in 3 days..

Currently listening to: Call me maybe_Carly Rae Jepsen

I have neglected my blog since I've been really busy. I actually should be studying for my history test tomorrow. ekk... but i always post pone it cuz i don't wanna read. Anyways life has been whatever at times. I think about how lonely I am... I kinda wish I had a bf again, but I'm probably not ready for anything serious right now. =/ I still talk to my ex randomly...He called me this week I think just to chat, but I was running late to class so didn't have a chance to talk to him. I didn't say I would call him back but probably shoulda called him back He just recently bought a house so he needs help on his electrical work so he asked me for help and asked me to ask my bro in law if he can check it out. I think its kinda weird since we're not together anymore so my bro in law doesn't really have an obligation to do this but i dunno i just asked him if he can help him out. Oh yeah and he also called to wish me a happy early bday :) He asked me who I'm inviting to my bday and I was like why do you ask that? Do you want to go or something? And he said no its ok. I dont know why he asked that maybe to ask if its any boys o_O like hes jealous. but w/e...

I'm actually not inviting any boys out this year. I dont think I really have any close guy friends anymore. Chris kinda is my only guy friend and im cool with the rest of his guy friends like alvin but sometimes I dont really know what to say to them without Quyen being there. Alvins friend Chano asked me what I was doing for my bday and i said clubbing sat and lunch on sunday. Its kinda funny that he thought he was invited when i never asked him to come out. He said he will try to come out to Mystudios.

So my birthday is in 3 days. Planning to do a clubbing event on Saturday night at Mystudios. I hope it goes well since last year my bday I barely made it to the club....got kicked out for being so intoxicated....so lame haha i just threw up everywhere but was pretty clean about it. hahah... Sunday I'm going to have brunch with the girls...its gonna be a tea party :) It should be fun :) since we never done that before. I was kinda tired of having bday dinners since thats what we been doing this year with all the girls bday so it gets boring. and also this is the first year with no bf paying for my dinner....i kinda feel bad for the girls paying for my bday but then again it probably gonna happen at lunch. but lunch should be cheaper? i dunno. But I guess we do that for everyones bday so thats why its fair.

There's a lot more drama that I wanted to talk about but this is the most recent drama/stuff happening right now. More to come: girlfriend drama, work drama, car problems. Ughhh FML! I need to find some better days.

PS: Forgot to mention my daily routine: work, school gym. poop lol jking about the poop but its in there with the routine haha. man I hope I lose weight...the gym membership better be worth it! $320 for 2 years.

Enjoy some random pictures from the past month. :) Includes the April babies bdays (Nancy and Jeanny) ^_^

peace out,
Susan

Your life is a gift. Accept it. No matter how screwed up or painful it seems to be. Some things are going to work out as if they were destined to happen. As if they were just meant to be.

Jordin Sparks_ It takes more

Tell me what happened this time
Made you come back again
I find out only see you when luck deserts you
If this is your idea of happiness
Then let's be clear
Those words of yours ain't working anymore

Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no, no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

I know you're busy so if you gotta go
Then go but don't forget to leave my heart
I stayed around for you but
You're no where to be found now
Once again here you are

Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

I've settled for less
When I stayed with you but no more
Cause you aint worth waiting for, ooh, uuuuh

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
(Don't you know it takes much more)
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
(Waiting for you, no, no, no, no)
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes more
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
(uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no
Don't you know it takes much more
No-no, no more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain, no, oh
Don't you know it takes much more, oh

been missing him but also trying to get over him..=(